sad

gone...everything is gone
nothing is left for me
frenships are stupid things
wad tok abt bff
it sucks seriously it sucks
everything happened this morning
or should i say it is something that is long there?
speaking of long it is not exactly tt long
a few weeks ago i guess
i dunno lah
my fault? ur fault? her fault?
it just doesnt matter anymore
u said im the one who is always having such probs and im the ONE who is among such disputes
i agree
but aint it the same thing like last yr
where they are always the one who give me probs
i tell u this, u said u r neutral than i said fine
than i borrowed ur highlighter for a while maybe 10 seconds
u tell me i have to ask?
aft one yr of frenship is asking of tt important to u?
even though it is something polite but does it matter since we r frens for one yr?
u went for lunch with ******* u expect me to ask u tt?
when i dun even noe u r going to?
u expect me to assume that we always have lunch on our breaks?
have it ever occur to u tt this pattern is not weekly?
if it is weekly and i blame u for something like tt i accept is my fault
but it is not and the funniest thing is this is the first time ever u eat ur lunch aft pe
so i should be blamed for not smsing u?
anyway tt is between me and *****
next is ******* im standing for one hour in class
not able to finish my history tutorial
i only change my leg to stand
and u call tt fidgeting annoying?
when ur body is not totally facing me
if u r focus in class will u even notice such things?
does i have to tell u everything private if i wanna tell *****
mind u tt we r just frens for like 1 pus months
im not in the obligation to tell u my private things
and seriously me and ***** is our prob,
i dunno why must u think tt her being ur fren
when we argue u always stand at her side?
does it occur to u u r childish in such thinking?
anyway it all doesnt matter now
frenships r stupid things
i wont ever bother to believe real frenships
maybe now table tennis frens and og frens are my only frens in sch
seriously if u ever sees this message i wish u having a good life and future of urs
while i have mine
yes it is true that maybe i will find someone who cn understands me
maybe i should reflect, m i the one? maybe i m
the laughter and smiles i give to my og frens and table tennis frens will be a mask
a mask which i will put on for a very long time