tired and sick

now here i m blogging......trying to focus on my studies but apparently i failed in doing so....

and the next thing i noe...im sneezing and down with a cold.....dunno wad happened maybe im too stressed up or wad...cant b bothered by those things......received my chinese test yesterday...not very well done....got only 54 over 80 marks.....should be happy....cos if u convert it is a B grade but wad is my grade.....u all shld noe since im not happy with a B than it should be an.....(leave u guess on your own).....

than now im blogging while smsing cherilyn........another shocking thing is....which actually not much of a shock lah cos it is like almost everyone forgot abt it.....she forgot when was my birthday again........nah im not furious just sad.....real sad....didnt noe y.....nvm abt tt.....shld i b sad abt......shld i not b sad abt it and move on....

i cant find an answer for this now.....maybe i shld move on and carry on with my this not so much interesting life....maybe if i werent here in this world suddenly.....i can only believe that it will only b my family who will sad for me.........i doubt others will....some may even gloat.......

i shall move on and force myself and study hard....work hard is the only thing i can think of now...currently.......

shall go back to studying..........

blogging again

okie back into blogging for some particular reasons....

1st: To clarify my birth date
2nd: To clarify my wishes for 2008
3rd: To tok abt my boring life

okie now first up the list.....my birth date is 15 July 1991 okie...........pls remember

secondly......wishes for this yr....first thing is in my sch life this is the first time i ever celebrate my birthday with real frens....not like those in secondary sch....this yr i wish to have several things.....oooo....quite alot man.......haha...but anyway.....i wish to get a new bag and a new pencil case.....i put my stationary in my bag.......lol like im the only one doing that....haha......next wan to have a new bag......my bag carry light things is okie but carry heavy things the cushion inside the bag is not that good so my shoulders hurt at the end of the day.....and finally my last wish......i wish all my og best frens will celebrate my birthday with me....i dun wish to go though this yr myself.....but actually my biggest wish is....let everyone remember this day......especially the frens who have their names mentioned her.....cherilyn...shimin....meryl.....amanda....and all og frens.....hope they remember...if everyone remember right i will b so happy

okie next up is the blogging of my boring life.....this whole week is like study and nothing much else cos the days left to mid yrs are scaring me....dunno is it me or wad.....somehow i dunno how to start toking back to my sis.....i want to tok one but whenever i start i wish to quickly stop the conversation........i hoep this sickness will not last forever.........haha.......

anyway gotta got back to studying........not much time left...........ahahaahaha.........

lol for today

back to blogging......aft a few days......focusing seriously on studying....

okie today have chem bonding lecture test which i dun think i will do well or even pass for this test even though i told myself to give my full shot but i went to do a very stupid thing on the test which i think ms liu will most probably laugh to her death or something but i dun wish to let others noe wad i did so if u wanna noe ask me bah.....haha....

okie than aft the history lecture....finally.....went to kovan with weikai and meryl to eat ice cream cos i told them i have the coupons wad.....but in the end i was being asked to eat along with them cos i didnt wan to one but they felt it was too bad for them to eat all so i helped to eat too....haha....than meryl went to popular to renew her parent's popular card.....than the cashier told us we r not allow to eat in the popular store or something so i was like okie lor....than i went to stand at the door there to eat.....i wonder if i did it on purpose or something....lol....no lah i not so evil one okie.....haha....or do i.......

nvm abt tt......haha....than aft which weikai suggest to go eat kfc than i was like okie lor...no comments one....i very sui bian one lor....everytime go out with frens is like they suggest and i just follow......lol......but it was okie lah i like the lunch with them anyway.....haha.......

than i went home and now here im blogging bcos i felt bored and btw grats my sis for finding her love again.....hope this time can last longer or something....haha...no offence.....

lol the homework r piling up so much man....got gp to finish....got history to revise for cos tmr i have a mock test....which was like so sudden lah...irritated by that....haha.....than i gotta revise liao.....i dun wanna lose to all my smart frens.....sometimes feel that i m seriously lagging bhind.....i dun wanna have this kind of feelings again....haha....

dunno is me or wad....somewad inside me i dun feel quite good this few days.....dunno is it bcos of this person or wad.......haha anyway i guess is my own thinking bah......nah dun wish to probe on it lah let my studies come first and this type of things come ltr bah.........

seriously tired of being a human being having so much feelings....i wish i can slp forever........and ever.........dun wish to stay on in this world........no more worries and troubles to face maybe the best day of my life.....may bcome emo from now on............

sianzzz

okie today actually tot can go watch movie with my fren.....hs....but in the end i was the one who asked him to go and apparently i made a mistake in the movie place....the movie is at orchard road the cathay but i tot it was amk hub....lol.....so sry sia......it is like waste his time or something lor....felt so bad abt it....now i cant watch it anymore....irritated by it sia.........

the show is like so nice..........dammit......

btw micia if u have the balls or cb to say something right u dun b coward to write at my blog.....my frens r like so hate u now.....so pls dun b stupid to write here and fyi i dun hate my frens okie........i treat everyone the same........

lol

wow........its sunday........but too bad for me.........still need stay at home study sia......so boring lah it is like homework nv ends man....and btw chem is definitely boring me to death....who call me like chem so much until now this chemical bonding chapter which is boring like hell or something.....cos im seriously pissed off with memory work

so much white hair bcos of it sia....sianzzzzz....but anyway yesterday i heard a funny but somehow lame joke but i dunno y i keep backtrack until this joke......

the joker says,"宅女(fyi:宅女is gals who always stay at home and faces the computer)这个名字已经换成蜘蛛女"
audience asks," why???"
the joker says,"因为她们周日挂在网上."

wa lao i hear liao laugh until like crazy person sia..............funny right??? if not funny means u have lost ur funny bone.......pls go fine it back quickly........

lol........im bored man.........dam bored.......i noe i need to study but i cant focus and when i try to i lose my focus onto relaxing......dam it......life is so difficult.........lol.......

can someone help me out............anyone...........oh ya i forgot........i leave in a world on my own........who would be here to help me when i dun imagine one out...silly me............

boring......

im so bored lah.........thats y im here to post...haha.....

okie i shld b considered to have accomplished quite alot of things today man........finished all my maths homework....both needed to be done and undone also finish liao.......muahahahaahaha....

than next up is chem.......studying my chem bonding lecture notes.......i supposed this is the only time where im so clear abt chem bonding from the time they teach until now....lol....

but still haven finish my chem bonding assignment.....sianzzz lor.....so difficult....dunno if im correct mah.......i wan get full marks for chem bonding.......i need buck up sia........jiayou adrian......

apologetic post

OMG.......im like now so depressed from angry with someone......

she was hurt by wad i did to her.....i cant believe that i manage to be angry with her for 2 str8 days lah....i dunno wad got over me that made me did such things.....she helped me when someone scolded me...she was there for me when i felt stressed up and wanted to give up...but in the end i did such things to her.....i really dunno wad to do sia.....furthermore she was so forgiving and said nothing happened between us...at all....and we r still best frens....this made me feel even worst.....how shld i face her......how can i continue b her bro........i promised i will b there for her whenever she needs me.....but i didnt fulfill wad i need to do.....

seriously apologetic........i think i need time to find back the real me..........find back who i m....and maybe until than....i may get the answer of how to face her........

so pissed.........

omg it is like so pissed of lah.............everything also blame me......hello i got do things for pw okie.......i went to find the article of both impact and plan for pw.........

n i nv give mr lim to sign the first draft of gpp okie.........it is u who told me to bring it out and i didnt noe u didnt photostat another one....still wan shirk responsibility and still push it to me who leave it in mr lim's pigeon hole.........hello i was with weikai they all yesterday while going home..........i nv went into the paging room okie so whose fault is it!!!!!!!!!!

and in addition u all said u call my handphone.....okie fine.....my handphone has no more battery lah.....so y cant u all message me so whose fault again!!!!!!!!!!!

and yesterday u logged in and u didnt bother to tell me wad to do in msn so whose fault again!!!!

and yestersday u called my hse number..........ooo very big sia.......u called my hse number.........but why didnt u leave a message of who u r.....u called but u didnt noe how to leave down a message....pls lah it is common sense for normal human to leave down a message when the person isnt at home.......so whose fault again!!!!!!!!!!

this makes me so angry lah..........everything my fault lor...............u all saints lor..............FINE.....from now on i do my part and hand it up to u.............no more helping u all liao........so this is wad i get from helping u...........it is really true that 好心没好报.....i finally understand this......made me b a more evil person......aft a few incidents i finally understand that there is no good people in this world, they r all selfish for themselves..........

bad day for me...

okie today was quite a bad day for me....

actually didnt wanna like write in blog one but i think apparently she dun really noe why m i angry with her....

u see it all started during pe lesson......she came over and we started toking and i started on my 5 stations and first up was shuttle run......i told her i was afraid and she was like telling me nvm u can do it one.....than aft i went to do the run than she came over and told me u dun look like u r running leh.....than apparently i was like okie fine......

than next was sit up and i did fine on this station so no need elaborate lor.....

than aft this was standing broad jump and she told me she wan see me jump and i was like dun wan lah cos i noe myself i m not good in this but in the end i went to jump and i forgot if she was there to see it or not but aft which.....i went to do my sit and reach and aft finishing i walk to the standing broad jump there and saw her and she told me guoren cant jump his standing broad jump and i was like okie than she said something abt me than i was like so pissed off liao....i noe my ownself so i told her i wont pass.....one part she was telling me u can one and the next thing she told me something different....and i was like so pissed off and i just walked away lor......

and i think until now she probably dunno y m i angry with her.....

and aft table tennis today weikai and me were like walking home and i weikai saw her and i saw her ltr(but not that late lah just a few seconds of difference)...and i knew she just finish band and she was at the carpark there while i was already on the pavement already so weikai told me to walk faster cos he knew wad happened so i just walk with him the same speed lor....

than aft which it was like coincidence or something when we were near the bus stop 62 just come and weikai and me took the same bus cos he said he could reach home in that bus so i was like okie.....and thanks weikai for taking the same bus as me....if not i will be like so lonely to go home myself even though it was only 5 stops but the 5 stops was very long to me...particularly today...dunno y.....

but anyways i m so happy in cca today managed to noe that my table tennis skills are improving but stil not those master lvl lah and i have a weakness which is i cant take left handed balls...which means i normally cant hit the ball if it comes from the left....and weikai pls STOP hitting left hand side ball to me......and i will get back my free drink from u okie.........

JIAYOU TO ME, MYSELF.................

i m so lonely in this world.....i believe that there is only one person who is good to me...and that will be myself.....even though there are frens.....but at the end of the day....the only person who knows u most is urself.....and always remember...humans are selfish in a way or another.......

okie today was a fine day.......did my spa practical and my econs lecture essay test....spa was like a breeze for ppl who have studied...and i HAVE studied for it okie......haha so managed to finish up the calculations for everything and the chem teacher who assessed me was like so good lor

and basically the day was like normal lah nothing much to tok abt except SHIMIN made me woke up so early and waited in college for her like dunno how long ....lol but nvm lah.....guys should wait for gals one lah...i suppose.....or m i making an assumption....or is it a fallacy....i wonder!!!!

okie gotta go study cos mid yr is like ghost like tt coming after me.....and i think i will fail econs test....supposedly i dun think i had wrote that well for it but...who carezzzz

today is a nice day

okie today was quite a fun day even though it is a monday whereby everybody is sianzzz in going back to sch and the worst thing is i have to end school at 5.30pm with pe....omg....

but nvm lah to me it is okie u noe....haha.....today ran 2.4km whereby i ran a 15.59mins for 2.4km

OMG i actually managed to run this timing which was way beta than the previous one....but al thanks to SHIMIN JIE JIE *claps* for her lah.....haha i was like walking during the 5th round and she was the one who made me run continuously for the last round and i managed o complete it in this timing which was like so shocking for me lah......thanks to her i managed to get this timing even though i didnt pass lah......just feel emotional abt this lah....

aft the pe lesson mr teng wanted to talk to me abt the diet thing and he said that my normal lifestyle is okie is just tt i m too lazy to go so i have determination this time round, must manage to cut down on weight.....

I WILL SUCCEED...................jiayou adrian.................

omg wad a fun lesson

okie today was a great day to start off with.....first up was chem make up lesson.....from 10 to 12pm.....it sounds sianzzzz but it was fun.....ms liu was like so funny lah

the first joke was tt she was teaching us question 6 from chem bonding tutorial notes and the covalent character of a compund comprises of 4 different structure and one of the structure is simple molecule with van der waals' forces of attraction and in this structure there is something called temporary dipole and permanent dipole interactions and ms liu keep saying the temporary into tempolaly dipole so the class was like laughing like hell bcos she didnt knew it until like we told her......

the second joke is when ms liu gave back riyaz chem lecture test and she said a joke and at first we didnt quite get it but in the end we were laughing like hell lor....

Ms liu said,"riyaz pls dun get so many U grades, even though i know SRJC all 4 U's"
than the whole class was like "SRJC all for you" and than we finally get the joke...than we were like laughing like hell lor.........

okie jokes aside now and i got back my lecture test....i managed to obtain 15.5/30 marks so i was like so happy lah i jumped from a U grade to a D grade....hello hard work pays off okie.....i studied like from 3 to around 5pm and did all the extra tutorial gave by ms liu and downloaded an extra aspire redox tutorial to do....than i was like zombie at 5pm bfore slping for like 1hr and woke up again for sch.....so i m sure that HARD WORK PAYS OFF...

and btw shimin jie dun sad lah i noe u tried ur best.....dun give up on chem okie.....jiayou jiayou for next test....must b like me even though we fail test we must work harder k!!!!!!!!!!!GAMBATTE...............

and for me nw i m writing on my blog and studying for history at the same time.......wow i m so pro sia.......lol and btw grats to my classmate weikai for getting B in chem......wad a smart ass sia....history got B and chem lecture test got B also.....so pro.....so proud to be his fren.....hahaha.....okie need go study liao not much time left bfore mid yrs

waaaa so stress......no time liao.............ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....must jiayou

(^(oo)^)*signing off*(^(oo)^)

so long nv blog liao

okie i m back into blogging aft leaving it for so long......i think it has somehow became a graveyard liao lor.....

nah but who cares abt that now im back i think i shld blog quickly.....

sianzzzzz.....time flies and next tuesday is my real A lvl spa exam for skills B and C and i m like still blogging here lol.....must jia you in spa lor must get lvl 8 for skills B and C.....even though i m rather stress and tensed up but still got my classmates they all....haha now getting along with my frens well lor....and the frens here refer to like evelyn, jia le, yan hui, weikai they all lor and i even asked meryl to like join us and it is like finally i wont b like with one fren and forget abt the other one so it is like....皆大欢喜....hahahahaha......

i found it is like so great to b with them even though sometimes will be like left out or something but i believe long liao this will improve lor.....haha hope so lah....must pray hard.....

okie next up is studying lor.....must study hard lioa the mid yrs r coming right up and i believe i may stop blogging and even stop using comp bcos the schedule set is like so tight and to my surprise i just realised that the chinese oral is like coming up during our june holidays if i m not wrong so it is like OMG everything is so tightly packed together like the particles in a solid man.....must buck sia i wish to go to hong kong.....and it is like top 100 students from the mid-yrs than can like get into this trip so must GAMBATTE...... jia you to realise this dream lor and to make more frens lah cos i very loner one so if go there liao must make more frens.....and i think thats all liao i need go study my gp...next week gp test again...so sad.....and i must overcome stress..................JIA YOU ADRIAN U CAN DO IT.....I WILL SURPASS EVERYONE IN MY CLASS AND SCORE THE BEST I CAN.....1...2....3....JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU